I just feel like nothing's getting better. Still NOT going to school. Still live at my mom's, and almost having a job doesn't count. Things are moving too slow for me. I've been more upset with David. I told him some time ago that I think that we should stop having sex, because I think that we don't really get along with each other besides in the bed. I feel like I'm being used sometimes. I've known him for 5 years now, and I would hate to lose his friendship because we were too caught up in sex while in our relationship. I feel like things are going to come to a screeching halt.


I'm also stressed out about David getting his diploma. He's currently enrolled in Virtual School, and he's been withdrawn twice. Now, I've been doing hours of work for him so that doesn't happen again. He can't even get a decent job without a high school diploma. He was accepted into FIU, but he can't even go because of his diploma. I really don't see us moving in together by next year April. Especially at the rate this is all going. I'm so sick of begging him to do his own work. The broken promises, his selfishness, the lies, the crying, trying to make things work, and caring WAY too much. It really shouldn't be this way. Maybe this is some sort of test on our relationship. I'm so tired of it. It's draining. I just really feel like he's not trying to make it work.