Yes, I wore my green and orange dress again. Shoot me.




Omg, my face looks so fat!

As you can tell by my choice of music on my blog, I'm really in another one of those drag queen moods. Dancing around my room. Music Blasting. Wish I had flashing lights. Mhm Lol.





A pic of my friends and I attending the Alice In Wonderland Play at our old High School. I'm the one on the right. We all look so weird. Lol!

It all started yesterday. I was on MySpace, and I wanted to play an Application, but it wasn't working, so I thought if I signed on to David's MySpace account, it would work, but it didn't. Something told me not to sign out just yet; to snoop around a little. I looked at his comments- nothing new. His inbox, strangely, there was nothing new. This got me thinking. He always has messages! So I checked the sent. Nothing! Nothing at all. He deleted them all. So then I was thinking, I don't know if he's smart enough to delete all of the messages in his trash. So then looked there. One message. It was a girl. I don't trust him when he's talking to girls. He likes to flirt, and it makes me feel like I don't even exist. I hate it! I started to read the conversation, and I started to feel a little guilty, but I kept reading. Out of nowhere, he complimented this girl on being very mature, saying that he knows no one as mature as her. He then said "Like sometimes my girlfriend reverts to a 6 year old, and it gets tiring." Instantly, the tears just started coming. No one has ever told me that I was immature, and never have I heard David speak that way of me. If anyone says something bad about him, even if it's true, I back him up. Always. I say great things about him all the time. It hurt me so much. You have no idea. I love this boy to death.

My mom was right when she told me not to love anyone more than myself, because it will destroy me. And so I feel today.

Why is love so bittersweet?

I don't remember the last time I was happy. I mean really happy. Just with everything.

Still don't have a job, which means no school for now. David and I are starting again with the fights. It's tiring. My mom even seems to have a problem with me living with her, even though I clean everybody's mess and get my sister ready for school in the morning. She's told me that the problem is with me staying at David's house. She doesn't want me to spend the night at all. Initially, it was her idea to begin with, so I really don't understand why it'll be a problem now.

I wonder how she'll react when she finds out that I'll be out of her hair by May of next year. David won't be living in Miami for long, and he'll be moving back to Orlando again. Him and his mom asked if I wanted to come along. I was hesitant at first, but after being threatened to get kicked out so many times, the offer seems like a good one. I was hesitant at first because I didn't think that my mom would approve, and I knew that everyone else in my family was going to look down on it. It's about time I stop caring what they think. They DON'T want what's best for me. I feel like I'm being held back from doing what I want. I don't party, drink, or smoke. I had good grades in school, and everything. Typical good girl. My life will no longer be controlled when I'm gone, and I can't wait.

I'm so ready for things to change.

I know that I haven't posted in a while. Sorry lol. Just spending time with the b/f.

OMG, yesterday I voted! :] For Obama of course.  YAY! I'm so happy. We've made history. Yes we, because we voted for him; whether you voted for Obama or not, you still made it happen. So many people were angry when they found out that Obama was going to be our President. I've seen people compare him to Adolf Hitler! Are you fucking serious?!? Hitler? -__-  ::sighs:: Idiots. Stop being mad and get over it people. I wasn't mad when Bush  was elected for the second time. Even though Florida did get fucked over with votes. I still wasn't upset. People are crazy. The president doesn't even have much power anyway. Read the constitution. Sarah Palin should try reading it herself as well- thinking she's fucking superman and shit. Well, I'm glad and honored to have a president who not only is an African American, but who actually cares about the poor, the sick, and the gay. I'm excited!

The accidental click happened again. I just lost an entire entry! Arrgh! LOL. Oh well.

Here's a funny video about a 3-year-old who only likes his mom when she gives him cookies.